Hidden thought

Finally, I told her about my hidden thought about that "topic" (her weight). I love her, I enjoy the time be with her. The problems then were the way people see her (plus me), the way I think when we had arguments, my envy toward other couples/ other girls. I won't say I have plenty of choice and I don't want to. What I would prefer is continuously encourage her to improve. Well, obviously she didn't like any time I mention that, I just can't let go.
Is thing going on for me? There's nothing happened to me concerning my application as well as her today.