2010年6月20日 星期日

唔係~f anny

自己本身對自己說話時會特別留意, 可能跟獅子座的自信及善於說話性格有關. 記得在英國的時候曾自我evaluate一番, 改善說話時常以"我"為首, 希望給聽者一個客觀的感受, 增強說服力. 一直都感謝自小都有這種自我反省的能力.因為心想自己改善, 我亦十分著意別人的話, 尤其是那些口頭禪問題嚴重的人(e.g."我","但係","唔係"), f anny正是典型, 差點句句都"唔係", 別人樣樣皆錯. 就當你比別人懂得多, 你的品行實在跟不上, 永遠活在自己的小圈內不聽別人, 就算朋友多又如何, 只為你覺得可憐...
I'm not complaining to what I've been seeing at bds, it's just a model that I have had observed during these days.
From a subjective point of view, f anny is a smart, whole-hearted, efficient, polite and socialised io with great potential to move forward. From my own observation, despite the completion amongst us, she intended to 霸 all the works in a speedy way which she appeared to be strong enough to be promoted. On the other hand, she is trying to undermine the existence of me which I never tried to make it as a shinning focus. I was then never being asked to attend discussion nor taught about anything related to planning.
I agreed that she is a very strong opponent that both the environmental and background considerations are favourable to her, I'm not giving up and letting her being like that in a long run.
These are my analysis on her:
- 佢已經5,6年人
- 佢起碼act左一次(我眼見)
- 佢響度日子短,但比我長(冇選擇下都要靠佢)
- 佢識人多, 人緣好(超多)
- 佢同leader都係女性(及single)
- 佢在其他人眼中係跟隨潮流的一群(唱k,玩相機,上大陸,玩fb,住港島)

2010年6月18日 星期五

f anny

自己本身對自己說話時會特別留意, 可能跟獅子座的自信及善於說話的性格有關. 記得在英國的時候曾自我evaluate一番, 改善說話時常以"我"為首, 希望給聽者一個客觀的感受, 增強說服力. 一直都感謝自小都有這種自我反省的能力.因為心想自己改善, 我亦十分著意別人的話, 尤其是那些口頭禪問題嚴重的人(e.g."我","但係","唔係"), f anny正是典型, 差點句句都"唔係", 別人樣樣皆錯. 就當你比別人懂得多, 你的品行實在跟不上, 永遠活在自己的小圈內不聽別人, 就算朋友多又如何, 只為你覺得可憐...

2010年6月10日 星期四

5-5
Still have the mind to escape from operation since I acknowledged the posting. After two weeks time, I had my 95 life kicked off here. However, the thing is everything has changed. There's no more Chow, no more laughter, no more friendly leader.
What I feel is similar to that when i was at HOHO SAN, I feel no sense of belongings and I don't even know what is happening around me. What borders me is after today (the second day), I will be going to another office taking up another post for the purpose of temporary replacement.
1 second before, I was asking what I will be going to, SP (spec i al p rojec t) or BDS (I don't even know the name).
1 second after, I talked to my great ex-leader YIM, I will be "posted" there, yeah. That means:
- no more shift work
- more OT
- more boredom
- more exposure to senior guys
- decent dressing
- my 3rd posting will be very important
- taking the place of a strong peer (appointee husband of huensee)



7-5
What the two IOs did at SP under my observation was emailing, from receiving suggestion (what they said "subjection"), to seeking advice from related department, to contractor and to users, everything was email. Honestly I dun see the very great value of havin work done in this way.
However, the other thing to which I'm sure was they all are friendly and hardworking.
Now I'm here at bDs, a more decent place but secret.
2 days after my expectation, there are some amendments in my mind toward the post:
- no more shift work
- no OT (very often i suppose)
- it will be the 3rd posting and it will be crucial as v-ince said
- v-ince was the only one who dressed in a decent way, p-IO was wearing patchwork
- it should be a bit lost in the first few moment, but i will be as important as him in a soon future


11-5
The second day in the prestigious bds. The office is so silent that I can't even type or key in the username for email. Most importantly, I was known that no specified tasks were assigned to me and hence I was not supposed to make any noise at any time.

12-5-2010
The third day of bds under formal posting, still, there is nothing to do (or more precised, nothing i can do). So far, the only thing I've done was sorting keys.
Okay, fine, having considered the responsibility, workload, pressure and chances of making mistake, this is a perfect job. But, having considered job satisfaction, challenge and training, this is rubbish (I should say i feel I'm a piece of shit).
Stay awake all the time, reading the previous old-skool files which had been bloodly changed nowadays. Even thomas said he should not have been paid for acting sicne he had no productivity at all these days.
To me, it's the ever worse thing to be like this, I can still remember the time at hk7s and SAM.
Will think of way out, I can't simply resign as what I did before.

Seems OCEAN will be collapsed soon. A super storm happened the night before between woon and pong. More than 15 yrs. Can we go throught this?
I started playing for john's again, just too bored in day time that I don't wnat to waste any of my spare time.

A quick look back of 07's year plan, I planned to get qualified to work in the finance market! (I forgot completely!)

A revised plan "AT THE MOMENT"
- assist HH in slimming and saving
- introduce HH to family (even my sister did)
- get married

- finance course
- fungshui course
- wing chung course
- daily exercise
- tidy up doc
- financial planning

- raise family contribution
- arrange body check to Dad
- ultimate cleansing
- mark down b-day of others

- get the feel and position in bds
- take responsibilities
- build up relationships

4-6
Turbo has gone and I am formally here. Same as weeks before, silent and spared. However, I found the truth, everyone is the same as me, even the chief. As perceived, we are all waiting for email and order. During the waiting period, it's on our own.
These days I had all the good memories flashed in my mind, laughing, gossiping, eating, hard-working, but now I'm getting weird and silent.
I even had my first online mobile, I'm getting worse now.
We've changed as HH became a CS, we didn't go for the v park 64 event this year.

6-6
Played for two consecutive matches for SJ with obvious improvement. Throughout the years, I've been upseting by the team owing to my performance, attendance, laziness, being an "affay' and many other factors.
Today I was praised by most of them that I was really 生 for the match. Frankly I spent times running and working out the day before and I did make some "accpetable moves" creating chances, however, I don't think it's really that satifactory. Anyway, I will keep on for the last league game and push myself to the best.
I love football.