2016年10月31日 星期一

Update

So many things to highlight, so little of spare to process.

1. It's been a while since I was posted to wanchai.
Good? Never. I don't see any light here. Met some many of others taking over, senior ones, junior ones, similar ones.
Adapted? How? Adapted to hell?
Happy? May be better than staying at home. I know it sounds devil.
And I met her, a young energetic and clever one. And things repeat (just I never learnt from those) and we did again. Looping the cycle of knowing, daily normal meeting, leaving, then found that we did into each other somehow, struggling between the two sides of ourselves, getting hurt, then being forced to face the truth, back to square.

2. I get smaller, smaller and smaller at home.
My lovely adorable one is growing up everyday and she started her school time this year.
And getting worse and worse, my voice never get heard, my presence never get respected. I sleep when I can, I eat when I can, I read when I can, I work when I can.

TBC.


如果我們發生了關係,還會是好朋友嗎?

有黎巴嫩男性朋友問我:「如果我和好朋友發生關係,我們還會是好朋友嗎?」他指的女性朋友是韓國人,他們在工作場合認識,這五年裡無所不談。
我回應:「那說不定。有些美國和歐洲朋友從小就認為和朋友交歡正常不過,這並不影響朋友關係,甚至可以令友誼更進一步。但是,我有朋友和青梅竹馬的密友睡了一夜,醒來後就絕交了,彼此都覺得關係變了,不能再做朋友。」

這答案其實你是知道的。如果要思前想後尋找答案,那就代表你們的關係不需要性來調劑。密友的核心關係是交心,不是交歡。如果雙方也有相互的吸引力,性關係會來得很自然。

這讓我想起另一個你-我的親朋密友,經常不經意地走進我的生活裡,不斷告訴我生活的美麗與哀愁。那些成長的掙扎,主流和非主流,那些飄渺的哲學和真理,孰真孰假。

曾經,我們躺在月光下,聊著天南地北,偶爾相互凝視,笑而不語。可能那天的月亮擁有神秘的引力,自此讓我們的生活起了微妙的變化。縱使相距半個地球,在德國的你和在杜拜的我,總是心有靈犀,那麼近那麼遠。是你讓我發現原來友誼可以這般浪漫。

某天,某地,天很冷,我們一如以往挨著睡。我是夏娃,拿起蘋果就想咬下去。你輕輕問:你確定嗎?我用吻來回應。那晚,天旋地轉,我們迷失在夜空裡。

我們了解對方的想法像了解對方的身體般透徹,那是最親密的友誼。謝謝你,無論我在天涯海角,也和我分享新的見解和心情。我們可以不斷探索對方的想法,也可以探索彼此的身體。但是,我們比較重視前者,後者是甜點,偶爾品嘗會變得異常美味。

友誼,可以至死不渝,愛情,可以嗎?

Source:
https://www.elle.com.hk/love_and_sex/Relationship/sex-relationship-with-friend-Beverly/(offset)/6