Do you want to be a scout?

I have been having a super lucky life till this moment. Though, as a youngster, I had blamed before. Who the fuck changed my life in this way?! Why I'm here to be with these idiots?! What have I done making my life that bad?!
Today I got the "pleasant" rejection letter from the scout, that recalled my memory when having that interview. I was facing 3 "senior" scouts and I did a well preparation before the interview. My luckiness continues and I can't accurately remember how many rejections did I get this year. The most embarrassing thing is, this post is in a c a m p, yes, my place of born. The place that I was discovered, fed, grew and left. It's not an easy thing to accept the fact, but it's just a normal day in 2007. There are still lot more time to go before I can give up. How much longer do I need to mess around this time?
A great quote "The selection board has noted your past experience with great interest.....we would like to inform you that you are placed on the waiting list."
Thank you.