Dated back record for March 2008

just read from a programme of a local drama, it says "there are ups and downs arranged, just take those downs as holidays given and believe things will turn good after"
She just asked for more care from me, from the content of her trip to spending more time using web cam, was it the last call for our relationship? is my life really going to the finishing point?
is everything pushing me to the dead-corner until i can't stand?
thank you, mtr, you fined me at the super good timing, i will remember this.


you know what? i'm really disappointed at the one besides me. I have never had this thought before blaming for my mate until the conversation I had with a colleague.
1. we both heard from our mates that "you actually don't need to come out if you are that tired like a dog"
2. we both agreed that we were not as bad as we should have been treated, if so, we should have a better than the present girl e.g. better figure, more beautiful face and you name it
just now, tonight we had a big fight again before we go for a little break at HKDL and the hotel there. The most heart-breaking thing was again I was being ignored totally. I have been working for a whole day outdoor, what was I supposed to do? Think about when and where we should go for breakfast? When I was again taking risk to remind her to exercise, she was meeting her handsome Sin again. Am I being respected at all? Has she ever cared about my feeling throughout the years waiting for her weight losing? Does she really know how I feel working outdoor with some other guys who don't even know the english word "earth"?
you freaked me out, you did. I know thing would not happen on me separately but all at the same time. You know what? I will be soon rejected by Immi. What I will do? Kill myself? Break up with her? Keep working under the damn sunshine for my whole life?