She .... kissed me

Never thought of breaking up with HH, to now, it's just about timing. Initiative? Marriage, appearance, way of thinking, family background, job, spending habit, celebration of special dates...

Still remember a chill out night with soccer team put us together. I spent a night with headache at your dorm. Since then we started our time. Another chill out night linked up two of us, heart to heart. I admitted I pretended to be drunk but the moment was the best time I have ever had. Your touch, your word, your kiss. I will never forget. Is it my problem to fall into a person that easy with a specific set of condition?

A text right after we set off to go back separately. I can't control my feeling deep in my heart. You are not drunk, we both weren't, we simply like each other. It's not necessary for me to like you when you said so, but deep from my heart, I know who I'm looking for and I simply don't know how to react and to do to sort things out.

Outgoing, hard working, active, reasonable size, caring, non-marriage oriented and smart.
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Outgoing, lazy, non-active, sunshine unacceptable, more than reasonable size, marriage and offspring oriented, caring, bad temper and smart.
It's not a proper thing to compare but as a direction guiding what I should do. Then what I should do?



it's the first v-day we are having and it's arranged that we can be together (dunno it's lucky or not)
thanks for giving me no pressure and trust me, but even i have no confidence on myself when facing this problem, but having you backing me up and looking forward to the future we might have, i'm charging up to wait for a better timing to have it done
from the little experience i had, people change when time goes by and i'd expect we will change from time to time, the most important thing is how we treat each other
i can't promise anything but at least at the moment i lost the patience and feeling that i used to have with her and i love YOU
there's a long long way to go and i'd love to walk with you hand in hand
i shouldn't have done that to you, it's unfair to you, it's and assault to you, it's not proper for us during this stage.
I wouldn't treat we have had started until things got settled
i love you and may be categorised as lo to, you are the one