完事

成件acting事件至現在, 我一直想找個下台階, 因為只有在事件發生當日胡蘇同madam魚輕輕地講CD會找另一個人來act. 需要下台階係因為阿sir同madam都建議我act up但我既profile就攪到佢地跌曬眼鏡, 又一廂情願, 冇鬼用.
今日, 地莊李sir放完假第二日, 佢就叫左我入房交代一下件事同希望我唔好有harding feeling. 冇harding feeling其實就一定係假既, 一個剛confirm既第二個月就有得act, 臨埋門前又話冇點會唔失望. 佢交代左個decision, 但以佢小心既情度, 有幾樣野要認真想一下:
- say no既其實已經去到AD (即係唔係我眼見既rank既人決定既啦)
- 我都估到有resistance, 所以臨放假前已經同ap io攞左blessing (其實我都聽到佢問我點解唔得, 我當時都唔識答, 同埋即係大粒果班話唔俾啦, 唉, 以後點算, 可能又會好似以前袁太幫手咁…愈幫愈忙)
- 佢地有其他考慮我冇反對, 但只係一個禮拜, 點解唔可以將個決定留俾section自己 (如果佢真係在位佢係咪會撐到底？)
- 當係一個test或者appreciation, 點解唔可以俾個同事試下? (咁即係test定appreciate?)
- 因為administrative convenience, 而且對個同事都未必係好, 來都唔知得咁多, 老實講真係幫唔到咩手, 如果下次唔搵佢佢又可能唔知點惗 (仲以為我有potential, 其實我係方便才真)
- 我會再take其他chance去pursue (再攪大ｄ我都唔知點算喇…）